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I ask God an angel
He ask me why
I answered Him:
"because I'm lonely"
then He gave me an angel

I became happy with my angel
we shared our laughters and tears
the angel guided me
but there is something missing

I ask God again:
"can you make my angel turn into human being?"
He ask why
I answered Him:
"because the joy seems not real"
then the angel became man

the jokes and sentiments became real
I touched the person and the person touched me back
felt a dream that is real
but there is something missing

I asked God again:
"can that person love me?"
He ask why
I answered Him:
"because I fall in love"
then He made the person love me

my smile did not fade
made our path the same
holding each others hand
but there is something missing

I ask God again:
"can that person care for me?"
God ask why
I answered:
"because I care for that person a lot"
then God made that person care for me

I shared all my torns
receiving me advices
as I pass on my troubles
but there is something missing

I realized that all I have was just like
an artificial
it doesn't came from the person's heart
but on the wishes God granted me

this time, God ask me:
"is there anything you would like to ask?"
I answered"
"nothing"
He ask why
I replied:
"because that person must grow on his own
not in the wishes I ask"
then God slowly fade away

we grew in our own way
I learned that the person is different
problems came in our way
that made us hurt each other

everything had change
the things we ought to do is gone
seemed like all God gave me was gone
which left me alone and hanging

realizing that this is real
which the person he came to be
he grew in the way he wanted
having no control on each others plan

I ask God:
"can you bring back the time when he was an angel?"
He ask why
I answered:
"because I was hurt"
then He made the person back to an angel

everything is gone
the feeling of real turned to nothing
as I watched the angel flew
I became still
looking for words to be asked

I ask the angel:
"where will you go?"
the angel answer:
"I'm just here above you"

I let my angel fly as I live on my own

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-romel