item missing

I ask God an angel
He ask me why
I answered Him:
because I'm lonely
then He gave me an angel

me and my angel become happy
we share our laughter and tears
the angel guide me everyday
but there's something missing

I ask God again:
can you make my angel turn to human being?
He ask why
I answered Him:
because the joy seems not real
then He made the angel to a man

the jokes and sentiments become real
I touch the person and touch me back
feeling a dream that is real
but there's something missing

I asked God again:
can that person love me?
He ask why
I answered Him:
because I fall in love in that person
then He made the person love me

my smile seems never last
making our path the same
holding each others hand
but there's something missing

I ask God again:
can that person care for me?
God ask why
I answered:
because I care for that person a lot
then God made that person care for me

I shared all my torns to that person
giving me some advices
as I pass on my troubles
but there's something missing

I realized that all I have was just like
an artificial
it doesn't come from the person's heart
but on the wishes God granted me

this time, God ask me:
is there anything you would like to ask?
He ask why
I replied:
'cause that person must grow on his own
not in the wishes I ask
then God slowly fade away

we grow in our own way
I've learn that the person is different
lots of problem came in our way
that hurt us so much

everything has change
the things we ought to do is gone
seems like all God given me was gone
which left me alone and hanging

realizing that this is real
which the person he came to be
he grow in the way he want
having no control on each other's plan

I ask God:
can you bring back the time when he is an angel?
He ask why
I answered:
because I was hurt
then He made the person back to an angel

everything is gone
the feeling of real turns to nothing
as I watch the angel fly away
I become still that words can only be spoken

I ask the angel:
where will you go?
the angel answer:
I'm just here above you

I let my angel fly as I live on my own

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-romel